Tuesday, August 30, 2016

Problem

My life keeps getting worse and worse, polluted by the excremations it seems of my dad, who I'm trying to have a successful relationship with.

Issue

They won't stop.

Issue

If I care about how I act, they hurt me.

Issue

I think they are messing around in ways I don't wanna post.

Still Mad

They're still mad I was upset and acting rather roughly to myself when they/my mom were acting all crazy.  Also, my dad acted like he was saying, "Okay.  But you can't "do it" in my home."  So what?  I don't listen to things like that.

They said my being upset was like one pinnacle that deserves suffering.  They won't leave me alone and are making me feel badly.

They think I am shit.  My life is shitty.

Other people are arousing me, too, and I don't want to be touched by them.

Problem

They are making it so I feel bad and barging in on me and editing how I feel.

Monday, August 29, 2016

Edit

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There are people spying on me in private and sending mean messages, social threats, nasty ideas to keep in mind, etc. and from people I look up to.  They do it via how my computer loads and, when my earplugs aren't in and the music not on, with clicks in my room, and thru people I know and strangers, etc.

They won't stop!

Every chance they get that they can talk to me.

Issues

I don't have any real problems, just these people messing up my life!

Update

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My dad's mom and oldest younger sister think tho we do not talk much they can come into my life and mess around with things.

Playing With My Life

They are saying since I was upset at them for not cooperating that I have to wait a long time for something.

Problem

I feel like I'm blown up in negativity.  I haven't even gotten to practice music.

Gone Off

They don't have to ruin my life like I did something to deserve it.  They keep going crazy on me like nothing will make sense, like how I behave will not yield good results.

Can't Contain Themselves

They just want to take everything they can.

Update

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I failed to get credit for 8 semesters of college, after I thought my life had become an experiment or found I was spied on in private.

"I'm not ^cool^" (with it)

It's not ^cool^.

It's not cool that my dad's oldest sister is getting into my life negatively.  This is quite a failure in application to my life.

Button

The orange button is disturbing me.

People on Message Boards

On the IMDb Soapbox, there are people who know about my life and are sending insulting messages.  They are obviously involved in the people spying on me in private.

Disturbing Glitch

The Report button on BlogSpot is now orange at the bottom side of the screen as you type.

More Details

I was fine, but my mom was trying to prove to me I should be upset.

Who cares anyway if I got mad?  "Life goes on."

More

creative ways to say I can't meet them and being bad, after drilling that they don't mean it

They keep taking advantage of me trying to make me feel bad.

So what?  They're just all over the place and expect me not to get mad.  I'm just being cheated out.

They want me to give up something important relationship-wise or whatever now.

I wonder what it's like for them getting by like they're always right.

Putting a Cap on It

They keep saying I lost a relationship because I was thinking roughly for awhile and being a bit aggressive physically when my mom was wrongly mean and offensive to me.

I feel like I'm being watched inappropriately ever since I used to watch The Ellen DeGeneres Show.  I feel I'm bound.  I feel stimulation around me, like it's her.  She won't let me be at peace.  It's like being stifled by something in the air.

They always do more things later, so I can't feature it right on my blog.

I know my family "will have something to say about it."

I know I will have more trouble.  This is to disconcerting.

Cummm to me

They are acting like someone I look up to needs to be telepathically raped because of something I supposedly did wrong.  "It doesn't show sign of stopping."  You know, I wouldn't have imagined, but my mom rubbed it in a lot and wouldn't behave agreeably with me.

So, they're upset with me because I was thinking angrily about my mom for awhile.  I accidentally was a little rough, with the faucet. That's probably their ticket.  My dad likes to twinkle his toes about these things, when you can combine things I did like a puzzle being rearranged to say something else.

So, also my dad's oldest younger sister and his mom keep coming up like, "Oh, yes, I am the Evil Queen and I expect an invitation."  "Nobody asked you!"  My aunt doesn't say much to me and thinks she has business ruining my life.  Before the world got crazy with the demise from Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, we lived in calibers, like who's "safe" and who's not, who's more mature and who's not, instead of saying older people had the warm and fuzzies meant all.  I was above them.  I don't need to listen to them.

If you're even more curious, my mom, like others have, turned me on in a way but without feeling.

They're threatening a relationship or something, too, because of this, because I was feeling so roughly for awhile in conjunction with accidentally being rough turning on the kitchen faucet.  My mom came out all hurt a bit later, and I figured I'd bother her no more.

They were playing around with me and held the keys when I was about to type "bother."

They've been acting all pitiful like I lose one of my best relationships or whatever and it's just a fact and they're sad.  They are the ones being offensive.  I'm just defending myself.

Did you know at church today, when it was about the youth getting their T-shirts, the people sitting on either side of me reacted when I made a little movement and were mad I looked at one of them.  At offertory, I was a bit assertive and they were abusive handing and taking the basket from me.

They keep making the computer pause, too, like I have to think of my opposite little brother.

They keep acting like someone I look up to is talking to me like I did something really bad and deserve punishment.  They are the ones acting badly!  They are rubbing it in and won't stop!

Update

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My parents often dig into me and agitate/irritate/arouse me.